Define It • Devotion #1: Forty-Six
Roger Allen | Recovery Director
“As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, since it is written, ‘You shall be holy, for I am holy.’” 1 Peter 1:14-16
My salvation story came later in life than most. Saved at the age of forty-six, the change in my life was profound. Clearing the junk that had accumulated through the years of selfishness and vain pursuits, clearly paid dividends. To many (including myself), the transformation was credible. The change in my life opened the eyes of many around me. It did not matter if you believed or not, there was something different about me now. Many that I had known for years wondered when it would wear off. Others wanted to know more of the exciting change they saw within me. In front of them, they had the transformation they themselves sought. It was an exciting time.
A few years later, I realized there was a change in how I responded to the things of God. I was serving faithfully in the church and still attending Bible studies, but something was not quite right. I seemed to have lost the joy that was constant when I first believed. Disturbed by what was happening, I sought answers through Pastors and other leaders in the Church. Swayed by the emotion of “not feeling” as if my eternity was secured, I was becoming lukewarm. I was going through the motions with no conviction or enthusiasm. Prayer seemed difficult at best.
Then one Sunday, the Pastor was speaking on forgiveness from those you had hurt. I needed to lay it on the table, bare your soul, and ask for forgiveness. Wrestling with God, I refused to obey. To disclose my past as an unsaved man was more than I was willing to do. I had too much to lose. The world would never understand. I wrestled for days on my decision whether I would be obedient to Him. My emotions overwhelmed me as I became a defeated man. I was broken. I finally relented to the Holy Spirit’s urging. This was the beginning of my search for His holiness and my obedience.
It has been over seven years since that day, and I look back in awe of what Christ did for me. The illumination of God’s will in my life to be obedient has forever changed the course of my life. The desire to seek His holiness has impacted not only myself but those around me. Dr. Richard J. Krejcir wrote in “The Holiness of God” (an article from Church Leadership) that,
“God calls us, not to conform to the world, but to Him. This requires conviction, and the willingness to peruse through difficult times and people who have opposing ideas. We do this because we desire to because of what He has done for us, not because we feel obligated, or forced. Holiness is also a trust that many do not see, a trust that He is there, and that we can have comfort and confidence in Him in all aspects of life. Otherwise, we remain chained to the despair of loneliness and self-destruction.”
Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”
Having trust is a game changer!